this has been a frustrating week. First of all I have a cold that turned into bronchitis. I am trying to find a part-time job and get school in order and I cannot talk! I have not been able to do anything but lay in bed. The house is a mess, I haven't been able to cook, I feel unproductive and lazy so i try to get things done and then i wear myself out.
Secondly, I thought this staying home thing would be awesome. Have my day to myself. Don't have to answer to anyone or work on a deadline or deal with crazy customers. And it has been great. The only thing is I HAVE NO MONEY at all, what so ever, ziltch. Every cent I earn is going to something else. Now I know how Dyrs feel when he's paying bills.
Maybe this whole losing my job thing has been to teach me patience, how to budget, and how much I appreciate my husband.
It has also brought me a lot closer with God, I have given up control , because I realized that I am not in control. Everything that happens is in Gods hands. When I get a job, it will be because God wanted me to have that job. When I go back to school, it will be because thats the way God timed everything.
I never realized this before. I thought that I did things because I wanted to and if good things happened to me it was because I was a good person or tried really really hard for it.
I WAS WRONG.
So this is me right now, frustrated and WAITING ON GOD WITH ENTHUSIAM!
My life and the journey thus far
- Laur
- Mother, daughter, sister, friend. Child of Christ, liver of life (haha that sounds funny)
Monday, November 21, 2005
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2 comments:
I feel you Laur....especially the school situation. Hang in there, God works in wonderous ways.
Not TOTALLY wrong. It's like surfing and God makes the waves. He gives you plenty to catch, but if you sit on your board forever, you're not going to go anywhere!
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