Frustration

this has been a frustrating week. First of all I have a cold that turned into bronchitis. I am trying to find a part-time job and get school in order and I cannot talk! I have not been able to do anything but lay in bed. The house is a mess, I haven't been able to cook, I feel unproductive and lazy so i try to get things done and then i wear myself out.

Secondly, I thought this staying home thing would be awesome. Have my day to myself. Don't have to answer to anyone or work on a deadline or deal with crazy customers. And it has been great. The only thing is I HAVE NO MONEY at all, what so ever, ziltch. Every cent I earn is going to something else. Now I know how Dyrs feel when he's paying bills.

Maybe this whole losing my job thing has been to teach me patience, how to budget, and how much I appreciate my husband.
It has also brought me a lot closer with God, I have given up control , because I realized that I am not in control. Everything that happens is in Gods hands. When I get a job, it will be because God wanted me to have that job. When I go back to school, it will be because thats the way God timed everything.
I never realized this before. I thought that I did things because I wanted to and if good things happened to me it was because I was a good person or tried really really hard for it.
I WAS WRONG.

So this is me right now, frustrated and WAITING ON GOD WITH ENTHUSIAM!