Day 1- New Goals

Things they are a changing... I feel a renewed since of yeah! and scared and trust and wow that I haven't felt in a very long time. A very good friend (and sister) told me, Laur you are a wonderful and cheerful and lively person, nothing should dampen that, that's who God made you to be. Its time to rediscover you, take back yourself. I'm paraphrasing because I was trying not to cry.

Goal 1: Enjoy this blessing of time (regardless of how long) with my children and husband.
Be upfront with my needs and expectations and rules that keep me healthy and wonderful, cheerful, and lively (see above).

Goal 2: Get healthy. Migraines, diabetes, thyroid... whatever this may be I can tackle it and I know stress is probably a contributing factor. I am a healthy person (Pen have you ever thought of being a yogi/therapist?)

Goal 3: Keep house clean and organized. So I can better accomplish goals 1 & 2. My hectic life and poor planning of 40 hrs a week and 2 kids (and lets be honest bad cleaning habits) have left the house less the kids friendly and sanitary, but today the dining room and living room are picked up and clean. Will tackle kitchen and laundry tomorrow. One day at a time, I am still not feeling good.

So that's the plan people I am not telling about my resurgence in blogging. This is for me and this adventure. For motivation when I need it, for reflection when I've made it, for the kids when they are older :)

This is your mother, this is where I am now. I love you more than you could know.